I just had the most amazing experience that I can't really explain, mostly in part to the fact that I was in the deepest level of trance I have ever been in.
Here are the things I can recall:
-Firstly, I definitely never fell asleep or like I was going to sleep. This all felt very specific and purposeful throughout.
-I started this experience with a completely different idea. Basically was just going to be available for spirit. Not try to control anything, not try to be or do anything, just be open and if something happened, great. If nothing happened, also great. Rome was not built in a day and neither is physical phenomenon.
-I started off with the red light on facing the wall. Earlier today, I got the sense that I shouldn't have it directly on me as that's too intense of light. Once I did my opening prayer and meditation I definitely sensed a presence. It told me to turn off the red light. When I did that, my phone (which I use to film all my meditations) was creating light and I got the sense I had to make the light stop. Unfortunately, that also made the video stop so no recording which is why it's so hard for me to remember what the heck happened.
-Once in the dark, I just stayed open and waited for Spirit to come (if it would come).
It came.
-I remember hearing some kind of tap or knock and then felt this click on my head and back of neck. I felt this sense of melding and merging. The area from my knees down became very cool, almost like a breeze. Pretty much after that it was a series of physical sensations. The mantra I kept saying in my mind was "I allow. I allow. I allow." Things start to get a little hazy at this point but I remember hearing at least two other knocks in the space and behind me. Also, I felt like the sensations would come in waves. Almost like Spirit needed to build up energy, and then create some kind of influence, and then subside to build up more again.
-I genuinely believe that they began pulling ectoplasm (or some other kind of energy) from my solar plexus. At first it felt tingly, then it felt like a coaster was on my stomach (the only analogy I can think of... that kind of pressure), and then once I was in a very deep trance, it felt like something hard was there. I can't prove that this was happening but that's my thoughts. In any case, the physical sensation was very particular and once we were done, completely disappeared.
-I also got the image of a man in his early to mid thirties most likely. Dark hair. Parted on the side. In a suit and tie. Funny thing was that his image was in black and white. He looked like he could have been from the early 50s was my sense. I feel that perhaps this was the presence I was interacting with.
-Something to note: At the very beginning, I stated that this would all last until the song "What a wonderful world" came on the playlist. Then I would be done... So in this trance state, I ended up basically tilted to the right side, slightly leaning on the closet door. My body was very still and stiff. I felt the presence on my left side (which is where I've felt this presence this entire time). I had involuntary muscle twitches that could have either been from the relaxed state or spirit, I'm not certain. One time, I did try to move and felt a soft pain in my solar plexus and thought "well if that's ectoplasm built up, I don't wanna mess with it" so I stayed still. There was an immense pressure on my neck (in part likely due to my chin being on my chest for an extended amount of time).
-The most intense and magical thing that happened for me: I'm tilted to the side, body feeling extremely stiff. I begin to hear "What a wonderful world" play and I think that it was all over and we were done. I try to move but I'm still stiff in this rigid position learning to the right. I get the sense "Don't move we're not done yet." So I stay still. I begin to feel the most gentle and softest "pressure" (for lack of a better word...force?) that begins to move me ever so slowly to the left instead of the right. Now in my mind I think "am I doing this myself?" so I completely let myself be still and not make any kind of movement whatsoever. I just thought of myself as a statue and focused on staying in trance. I believe I was most definitely NOT moving myself to the left because I made the conscious effort not to move. Eventually I was almost to the wall (and started to panic a little inside because here I am, letting some entity interact with my body completely move it and do whatever, but I reassured myself that I properly set the space and intention and that I had nothing to worry about. When I felt fearful I just said "I allow it, I allow it, I allow it") and just as my body and head ever so gently come into the contact with the wall, I hear the last line "ooooh yeeaaah" of "What a wonderful world" and then the VERY INSTANT the song was over, ALL the pressure on my body, sensations in my solar plexus, presence in the space, energy etc. completely lifted and everything was back to normal!
Mind completely blown. I pray this is the beginning.
-Michael
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